So, dinner tonight was the first time in about 74 hours that I actually left the apartment. Sad, isn’t it? I mean, it’s nice that I like my apartment and especially my room enough to spend such time here. It’s also nice that I have enough groceries to feed myself satisfactorily for 3 days. It’s nice that my friends live with me such that I don’t hunger for human contact. It’s nice that I got a parking spot that does not require me to move my car until I’m ready. It’s nice that I have enough work ethic to be working on my project (I think I’ve spent about 30 hours on it since Monday and the backend work is almost done. Then comes making it look pretty.)
So, it was nice and all, and perhaps I proved something to myself (that i can work from home, feed myself, etc etc).
But, man, it was nice to step out the door and go someplace new.
We had dinner at Kuni’s. The food was good, but for some reason the sushi took forever to arrive. Timing was messy b/c I’d been expecting Sil to come in around 7. But then she called at 6:30 saying that she was leaving just then and wouldn’t be in until 7:30. So I rushed everyone out the door (after trying to hold them back until 7). And then the wait was so long that Sil just came to the restaurant and met us. But, she came after we’d gotten out food, so she didn’t get to order anything…
Messy messy messy.
But it was great to see her. We caught up on the summer laying anecdotes down like burning rubber on dry asphalt during a drag race. She toured the apartment. I made fun of Kuwie’s stuff. We rehashed a lot of apartment stories for her. Not being her roommate anymore is odd. I mean, there’s a level of barriers down between roommates. And even though she’s the closest friend I met in college, the combo of summer separation and the imminent future separation puts a slight barrier up again. One of her cousin’s reads Scrubs and she said that he knew something going on in my life that she wasn’t aware I was doing…
Anyway, I’m over it now, and I’m sure when I see her next week sometime, this feeling will have passed… Besides, maybe it was just me feeling vulnerable before the outside world.